How I became grateful for my infertility

Note: This post has been in draft for four months because it was hard to let it go. Gratitude and infertility are not words that are used together in the same sentence. Infertility is more often described as: “A struggle” “a flight”, “overcoming”, “obsession”, “a battle”, “over exposing”, “stressing”, “despair” “loss” Not exactly positive words thatContinue reading “How I became grateful for my infertility”

Diagnosis infertility. Job description, advocate.

I made a difference at my fertility clinic.  At the beginning of March, I met with the Patient experience officer and Dr. B after the failure of a fertility cycle. It was a two-hour emergency meeting. It happened because I was falling apart. We met because I felt like a number. I felt I wasn’t listenedContinue reading “Diagnosis infertility. Job description, advocate.”

Having kids is irrational. They do not make us happier.

I often read Penelope Trunk. She is an interesting writer and often has an interesting point of view. I wanted to share her latest post as it’s a bit controversial but as women, we really need, to be honest with ourselves as to what do we really want. Supposedly we can have it all andContinue reading “Having kids is irrational. They do not make us happier.”

The two week wait is our Hotel California

The whole thing about infertility that is crazy making boils down to uncertainty and lack of predictability. Every two-week wait (exactly as described in this link) is riding high on what your life will or will not look like after these two weeks. Since I am so overly aware of what is going on, itsContinue reading “The two week wait is our Hotel California”

No more needles! No more ultra sounds! No more 8am clinic visits! No more of this! Please make this STOP.

commitment to The Clinic. We are talking YEARS if you count the first time I went to The Clinic. It has taken a lot from to surrender to The Clinic and be OK with all of this poking and prodding. I’m so done now. Can something be easy, just a little bit?

Its one thing to make it, its another to keep it.

This post from Facebook really moved me. As I go through this journey, one thing I actually didn’t want to acknowledge is the possibility  of a miscarriage or a still birth. This is something thankfully I have not gone through. I don’t know, after all of this, I just can’t even imagine how it wouldContinue reading “Its one thing to make it, its another to keep it.”