My diagnosis of PCOS is bullshit

What is PCOS? PCOS is Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. Its one of the most common hormonal endocrine disorders in women. PCOS has been recognized and diagnosed for seventy-five years. There are many signs and symptoms that a woman may experience. Since PCOS cannot be diagnosed with one test alone and symptoms vary from woman toContinue reading “My diagnosis of PCOS is bullshit”

Its one thing to make it, its another to keep it.

This post from Facebook really moved me. As I go through this journey, one thing I actually didn’t want to acknowledge is the possibility  of a miscarriage or a still birth. This is something thankfully I have not gone through. I don’t know, after all of this, I just can’t even imagine how it wouldContinue reading “Its one thing to make it, its another to keep it.”

A love letter to my ovaries. A ritual.

Why am I talking to my ovaries? I admit that the IVF process is completely unnatural. It has taken me a long, long, long time to get to this point and be OK with it. I believe that everything has energy and talking to certain parts of our bodies actually soothes any anxiety that body partContinue reading “A love letter to my ovaries. A ritual.”

Dr. Edward Ryan an angel in human form

Background In spring of 2016 I started to get frustrated with Dr. Dickson, not because she was going anything wrong, it’s just I needed someone who was willing to be more “out there” with me. Someone who understand and believe the mind-body-spirit connection. I called a friend and found out where she went ten yearsContinue reading “Dr. Edward Ryan an angel in human form”

The question that turned my world upside down,”Universe, what is next?”

New job started Sept. 2015 Retreat took place Oct. 2015 Inner Journey Intensive This blog is a little tricky to write because it deals with my employment but its essential to the current journey and outcome. I want to pre-empt this post and say that all these emotions happened at the start and do notContinue reading “The question that turned my world upside down,”Universe, what is next?””

The very first cycle

No one understands how fertility clinics work till you’ve gone to one. I could explain to you till I’m blue in the face but you won’t get how it feels to sit in waiting room busting with women of all ages and ALL paths who are waiting for their internal ultrasound to be done and their blood to be taken. You can try, but I can forgive you that you won’t really understand.