A love letter to my ovaries. A ritual.

dear-ovariesWhy am I talking to my ovaries?

I admit that the IVF process is completely unnatural. It has taken me a long, long, long time to get to this point and be OK with it. I believe that everything has energy and talking to certain parts of our bodies actually soothes any anxiety that body part is experiencing. brings focus, attention, mindfulness and and awareness to what is about to happen. I’m explaining the process of IVF to my ovaries.

Hypnosis.

When I went to my first session of hypnosis with Shawn (female), she immediately told me to talk to my ovaries and explain to my eggs what will be happening. It struck me as odd, but it in another way totally makes total sense. Shawn said, “tell your ovaries the process that is about to happen and that the eggs are safe being out of your body. When you start IVF, really start talking to your ovaries and start assuring them”.

Body awareness

A few years back when I did a week long yoga/mindfulness  program, I was asked to turn off my cell phone during the day. By the end of the week, I starting noticing that every time I got a text message, my body contracted….. every…… so…… slightly. I usually wouldn’t even really notice this slight contraction, but because I was so centred and feeling mindful, that I noticed every little change in my body. I noticed how my heart just jumped a little. My pulse increase for that one extra second. If from a simple text message, my body contracted, imagine how the ovaries (and eggs) must feel in the situation I’m putting them in.

I’m asking them to:

  1. Produce an abnormal amount of eggs, aiming for around ten at once instead of the normal one at a time
  2. Allow some foreign object to retrieve them (the eggs) and then
  3. Pull the eggs outside of what is the only environment that the eggs know.
  4. On top of that we are asking them to work in this strange environment that they have never experienced before to start creating a baby.
  5. We will then (eggs) biopsy you to check for chromosomal abnormalities, so make you are performing well!
  6. Oh yes, by the way eggs, you will be frozen
  7. Then we will pick just one of you to put back and we hope you are not traumazied too much to then produce a healthy bouncing baby.

If I were my eggs, I would have sent a strongly worded letter demanding an explanation.

Our bodies are more than just science, everything has a spirit in it.

We are talking to my eggs and ovaries explaining them the process everyday and telling them they are safe as well that we are grateful for the work they are putting in to make this possible.

Before the needle our ritual.

As Marcin prepares the needle, I sit on the couch and just focus on my breathing and allowing the surrender to happen.

Marcin comes, and everyday day the needle goes either in the left or right side of my stomach. He puts his hand on the side that is about to receive the needle and we begin talking to my ovaries and describing….

Love Letter to my ovaries

Marcin….

Thank you ovaries for recieving this drug. Thank you in recieving this magical potion that we assure you is safe and that you are safe to receive.

Me….

Dear ovaries,

I just want to let you know what will be happening to you but first I want to let you know you are safe. In the next ten days or so, there will be a doctor who will be taking out all the wonderful eggs and they will be coming out of our body. The eggs, will be going to the spa. There are wonderful people who are going to be taking care of the eggs. Ovaries, I want you to know that the eggs that you produced are going to be safe. They are going to be put in this amazing nutricious liquid where they will be babied, and pampered and lots of pictures will taken of them.

The eggs you produce will be celebries and they will bask in the light of all the attention that they will be getting. I’m getting excited for the eggs, I mean who doesn’t want some pampering before they really need to work?

After five days after the they are retrieved of us (our body) they will be put to sleep. They get to go for a rest and sleep so they can get ready to be put back and make that wonderful baby. Most eggs and sperm don’t get so much time to get aquained with each other, but on top of the spa, there will be a person by the name of embriologist, and he will be pick the most handsome of sperm and they will fight to get married with the eggs that you produced.

As you can see Ovaries, the eggs you produce are perfectly safe because after all of the they get to be transfered back to the warm and juicy environment of the uterus. Everything will be ready for the strongest egg and sperm connection to come back. It will be such an amazing environment. Let the ovaries know they are safe. They are safe.

The most amazing thing about this

My body now looks forward to the needle. I don’t see the needle as sharpe but life giving. I don’t feel scared about the procedure. I’m looking forward to it.

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